Kingdom of self
We must be 2nd so Jesus can be 1st in our lives.
The hardest thing in Christianity is to take ourselves off of the throne of our lives and put Jesus on it. We can no longer be 1st because Jesus must be. This is hard because the Kingdom of self is heavily defended territory. This is a moment by moment, day by day process over the course of a lifetime as we learn from and grow through every experience we have. Dying to self is hard, but I have learned not dying to self is even harder. Only in this context does the scripture below make any sense,
"Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it " Luke 9:23-24